Miyerkules, Nobyembre 30, 2016

voices

He'd rose up at first light from
the night he  thought he couldn't
surpass. A struggle that could be
thought should not be
Low-spirited, glum, unclear.
The sullen bedroom whisperings
calling out quietly dragging a pace
the weight of a tumultuous morning,
Haze a dense opaque in the stairwell
up to the muted zenith, mocking—
Echoed by the likewise taunting yell
Vespers of the distant belfry
amplifying coldness a dusky despair 
Bleak, dismal, and weary
Provoking, abysmal, but dreary.

He'd stepped over the moist metal railing
as ravens do, as if observing
the gray sky and viewing
the lorries below on the pinnacle
of the still-sleeping realm
over a seamless misty pane,
Overwhelming, nauseating, frightening..
But what pain could top fear?
And how as such be inflicted?
All I know he'd whisper just as
softly...as then he'd cling
to the edge, beaming
last glances to the gray skykissing
through air the world below, then
              submitting
to a moment that broke silence

After plummeting
                          
                        
               himself
                                  
                              



                           to the ground.


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Lunes, Nobyembre 21, 2016

gaviscon? bakit gaviscon?

i got stung by a scorpion this morning. 



 
bakla hindi yan, eto..

yes just this morning as i was preparing my agahan, as i was about to get a bowl in the pantry cabinet para lagyan ko sana ng ulam, something stung me on the wrist. kala ko nung una, naipit yung balahibo ko sa kamay pero hindi eh, ang hapdi kasi, that distinguishable sharp pain yung parang na-sting ka ng bee? so i checked the area malapit sa left wrist ko kung me bite or something…wala naman akong nakita at first. so i proceeded on getting a bowl. maya-maya pa'y di pa rin nawala yung sakit so i concluded na me something talaga na “kumagat” sa kamay ko.

i was thinking  that if it was a bee, paano naman magkakaroon ng bee sa loob ng pantry cabinet deebuh? by this time medyo mamula-mula na yung area na “nakagat”. then it just occurred to me na baka scorpion kasi nakagat na rin kasi ako ng gagamba pero di naman ganito kasakit, di rin naman itwu kagat lang ng langgam, so i went back to the cabinet to closely check. at hayun nga, at the corner of the pantry door was a small translucent brown scorpion, about 1.5 centimeters in length (tail not included). at dahil andun pa xa, walang sawang pinaghahampas ko ng tsinelas yong tanginang scorpion hanggang sa wala nang natira sa kanya. amputa.  leche.

shit. shit talaga kasi never pa akong nakagat ng alakdan. and alakdans are quite venomous like, you know, nakakacardiac arrest na venomous? don na ako kinabahan kasi parang me slight numbness na akong nararamdaman sa left arm ko paakyat. or baka nag-oOA lang ang lola mo. pero ganon pa man gusto ko nang manigurado: mamita?..mamita?, tawag ko yung mama ko, let’s go na dali. magsha-shopping tayo?, tanong niya. punta tayo sa emergency room nakagat ako ng scorpion.. and mamita was like, HUWAAT? Paano?! Saan?! mudra, kalma. gora na tayo sa nearest hospital dali, maya na muna ang chikahan. so nagtaxi na kami kasi i still hav to work at 9 at 8:30 na nung umalis kami. 

di naman pala lahat ng scorpion stings nakakamatay, although me certain species po ang fatal at dangerous talaga, yung “kagat” niya is not as fatal as of a king cobra or a black widow na agad kang titigas. but i do recommend na pumunta pa rin agad sa doctor para ma-check yung sting. malay mo deebuh, hanggang 20mins na lang yung buhay mo? so might as well para makasiguradong aabot ka pa hanggang 2hrs. lol

i was administered 2 injections, 1-antitoxin at saka isang anti-tetanus vaccine. me mga gamot at antibiotics ding dapat inumin for 7days. at me kasama pang gaviscon. Gaviscon? 3x a day? doc diba para sa heartburn po amputang gaviscon chewables na itwu?? pano nasali ang heartburn sa scorpion sting? single po ako doc pero di naman sumasakit tong puso ko sa pagkadesperado. umayos po kayo. so to make the story short, what seemed to be a normal morning for me turned out to be a morning na gumastos agad ako ng 2-thousand ke aga-aga. ang buong akala ko kasi 300 lang. gosh, windang. 


Huwebes, Nobyembre 17, 2016

into the dark clouds: hk escapade

this familiar statue @ the ave. of stars
the Fasten Seat Belt sign was turned on just moments before the pilot announced that we would be experiencing turbulence throughout the flight. as i gazed outside the small window all i could see were thick clouds enveloping the entire aircraft. this is going to be rough—i mumbled quietly as i anchored my feet on the metal bar under our seat and closed my eyes.

i have this inexplicable anxiety every time i fly, well, i think the reason was already obvious. i can feel my morbidity literally reaching out for me at such instances. and we wouldn’t wish something goes wrong while up there thousands of feet above ground. two hours—there could happen a lot at that span of time.  i really prayed earnestly to make the flight safe. only after that i was becalmed.

moments later we were delighted to see we are already approaching a green piece of land from the distance, i know we were nearing on our arrival. and everyone was starting to feel eager and excited. with that shaky flight who wouldn’t? thank God we made it  despite a very bad weather.

just as expected, we arrived on time at the Hong Kong International Airport. it was already 30mins past 9 in the morning but it was a cloudy and gloomy day. i kind of worried a bit because it might do something with our itinerary for the day if the weather is not permitting. sinusundan nga talaga kami ng bagyo.

together with auntie marlyn, we both were greeted by her daughter na classmate ko nung college, si jaeLaw (remember her?),  at the arrival area. thank God, we won’t have any trouble going to our place. jL, together with 2 other friends from Singapore—tita krissa, & petina—arrived a day before. it was actually kind of inaccuracy of info on my part that made them a day earlier. 19th was suppose to be our arrival in manila. we have to fly there as our point of departure for hk the following day. so i got confused.

speaking of manila, we had a not so pleasant experience when we got there. auntie marlyn and i decided to wait for a yellow taxi, we were glad the line wasn’t that long, but we later realized that the taxis arrive at a 15-20min interval. we had at least 10 people before us so you can do the math. that whole waiting part was draining to the maxx. not to mention the nakakasulasok na usok ng maynila. no offence to truth though. buti na lang nakahanap si auntie ng mapaglilibangan niyang makakausap di sana’y bagot kaming pareho. i started to feel dizzy and both my feet sore. jusko po!

prior to that, delayed pa yung flight namen from cdo, instead of a 1:25pm flight we waited until 3:00pm bago kami nakapag-board sa eroplano. gosh, budget airline po kasi kaya wala akong karapatang magreklamo! but as early as this moment sa blogelya sukdulan na 'tong mga rants ko! :D

so mag-aalas nuwebe na ng gabi kami nakarating sa hotel as compared to the expected 6:00pmna me allowance na for traffic. tinawagan ko kaagad ang hotel para di ma-cancel ang booking namen, hanggang 6pm lang kasi yung check-in dapat. tinanong ko siya, okay pa naman si auntie, di naman siya masyadong mareklamong tao so keri na rin.

the mickey train to Disneyland! (w/ petina & auntie marlyn)
so nasa Hong Kong na kami ni auntie marlyn. pagkalabas namen to the arrival area lobby agad naman kaming nakita ni jaeLaw, malaki rin kasi si auntie eh agad xang makikita. lol. maganda naman ang HK in fairness, and while we were on the upper deck of a double-decker bus to our hotel medyo lumalabas na yung sinag ng araw. such welcoming sights to see while on way. hmmm…feeling excited for the day mode agad ang bakla. 

pagkababa namen sa bus stop at habang naglalakad na papuntang apartment carrying our bonggang bagelyas biglang nagulat at tumigil si jL: naiwan niya yung maliit niyang bag na me lamang passport, pera, at other important documents sa bus! juskoopo! hija mia! baklang baklita! ba’t naman naiwan eh hawak-hawak mo yon? tinanong ko siya. hindi niya daw namalayan kasi binitbit niya ang bagelya ng mudra kaya hayawn.. mangiyak-ngiyak na ang hija mia, at halos hihiga na xa sa gitna ng kalye! jusko gurl, punta muna tayo sa tutuluyan at doon ka na lang mglulumpasay. me nakasalubong kaming pulis then she tried soliciting advices on what she should do. police report, yon daw ang unang gawin namen, mag file kami ng police report na naiwan sa bus amputang bag niya na kakulay talaga ng bagelyang binitbit niya from auntie. kaya nga siguro di niya namalayan agad. geezz, thus we needed to go the local police office nearby. and by nearby i meant 4-draining blocks away pala ang nearby. bakla, di po maiksing blocks yon ha we’re speaking about metropolitan blocks po. so kami naman, keri-keri pa yung mga bagelya, follow the leader na lang kami. at dahil mabagal kami kasi me dala, jL asked a favor na ako muna ang bibitbit ng bagelya ni auntie kasi masakit na rin ang paa ni auntie. OMG, paleasssee! bigyan niyo ng hustisya ang suot kong maiksing palda pinagbitbit niyo ako ng bagahe! lol
#akoangmearingfountainnaitwu!

nauna nang naglakad si jL, ng mabilis halos di namen xa maabutan. nakita naming umakyat siya ng overpass kaya akyat na rin kami. imagine us trying to catch up on her pero me bitbit akong bagels teh! hunduhmee pang tao, jologs deevuhh? nung nakaakyat na kami biglang naglaho si jL. auntie asa’n  na siya? wala ring ideya si auntie. dahil di na namen siya nakita sinundan na lang namen yung signage patungong “Government Offices” baka sakaling nandoon rin ang police station. so lakad na nman kami bess. parang arrow lang lahat itwu at wala naman kaming nakitang government offices. hanggang sa nakarating na kami sa dulo wala talaga, parang mall na yata yong nasa dulo. so we decided na doon na lang muna kami ni auntie maghintay, we waited for a while. and that while turned into another hour of waiting. hiyang-hiya na ako sa malagkit kong mukha, hunduhmee dami pa naming cuties na dumadaan. 

dahil isang oras na kaming naghintay at di pa rin namen nakita si jL, nagpasya kami ni auntie na hanapin na lang muna namen yung tutuluyan. we’re quite sure nandoon na kami sa vicinity. at nahanap naman namen after another 15 minutes na paghahanap, jusko. pagod na pagod na kami ni auntie at di pa kami nag-aagahan kasi don na sana kakain sa apartment. you may wonder anu bang ginagawa ng 2 other friends namen sa apartment—sina tita krissa at petina? actually they too were wondering kung ano na ang nangyari sa amin ba’t di pa kami nakarating ng apartment lagpas alas-onse na ng tanghali. pero hindi rin sila makababa (from the 21st storey flat!) kasi dinala ni jL yung kaisa-isang susi at andon rin sa naiwan niyang bag niya. haynakupow.. 

fr left: auntie marlyn, jL, darth, tita krissa, petina, stormtroopers
so we  waited at the lobby pa kasi we can’t make akyat kasi di pa namen alam ni auntie kung saang floor yung flat namen, di rin namin magamit yung mga cellphone namen, wala namang tao sa receiving area kasi nag lunchbreak. grabeh na toh ha, i feel like i should make an eksena na talaga, grabeh. umiinit na yong ulo ko wag mo kong biruin bess.. maya-maya pa’y dumating si jL. si jaeLaw auntie! medyo napasigaw ako kasi excited na talaga akong makaakyat para makapagahinga muna kami. halata sa mukha niyang nag-aalala pa rin xa kasi di pa nabalik yung bag.

we were supposed to go to Disneyland after lunch, but we might not be able to enjoy the day kasi me kasama kaming namumroblema, mas importante ngayon na mabalik yung bag. she suddenly remembered she was able to take a pic of the bus bago kami sumakay, nagselfie pa kasi kami eh.. so na-identify na namen yung bus thru the pic. yass, i think we’re a step closer. so tumawag ulet si jL to inquire. wait, tumawag ulet?, so di pala naiwan tong phone niya sa bag so why indahell di niya sinabihan agad tong mga kasama namen na sunduin kami o hanapin kami sa lobby ni auntie? buhkeett??

a pose @ the disney entrance with petina & auntie marlyn
henewei, so she was able to call the bus company at sinabi na puntahan niya na lang daw yung naiwan niyang bagelya sa station don sa loob ng airport where we bought our octopus cards, me isinurender daw kasing naiwang bagelya tulad ng inilarawan niya. deym! sigawan ang mga baklita! solved na!

to make it short, kahit medyo late na sa sked, natuloy ang Disneyland. and we waited there til the evening for the fireworks.   

* * *
on our second day we weren’t able to do much but stay in our apartment kasi it was when Haima fell in HK. we were supposed to go to Ocean Park pero sa di mapigilang pananalasa niya, sinundan nga talaga kami ni bagyong Haima. hmpf! it was declared signal no. 8 in Hk. ang lakas ng hangin na kahit suwayin man namin ang advisory na bawal nang lumabas ng bahay, di pa rin kami mag-ienjoy kasi sarado lahat ng pasyalan. pinoy nga naman, di takot sa kahit anong signal. lol
can't get enough of this jologs pose
we spent the whole day talking na lang and catching up. alam mo yung you just enjoyed each others’ company slacking on the bed at nagtatawanan lang sa kahit anu-anong mapag-usapan? and the heavy rain outside added to the drama. we just let everything go, forget about the worries of going back to reality again the following week but just enjoyed making more chika with our hot cup of noodles. i didn’t expect it would turn out to be my most unforgettable day there. :)

mga past-6 ng gabi humina na si Haima, so kami na kaninang umaga pang nangangati ang mga paa, labas agad ang mga baklitang froglets sa kalsada upang rumampa sa night market, pero walang nagtitinda wen we got there. as in  wit, zero, waley bess.. so we decided to stroll na lang sa Avenue of Stars nearby. peetchur peetchur...like, you know, peetchur peetchur.

the sked for our third day (oct 22, saturday) was quite crammed kasi it would be jL & company’s last day bago flight nila early sunday morning pabalik ng SG. so siniksik namen ang Sky Terrace, Ngong Ping 360 at Victoria Peak sa umaga, isang banda lang din kasi ang mga itwu. bandang 1pm na nang kami nakababa. gora na derecho sa ferry terminal to Macau. at the terminal, after the immigration churvaloo and while heading to the docking area for boarding, biglang hinarang si tita krissa ng mga pulis at dinala sa kanilang office. jusko, hanu na naman ba itwu? we were called in by the ferry officers na kasi tatanggalin na nila ang platform, lalarga na si  ferry bess. Lord, not again. hintay pa kami ng ilang saglit pero di pa rin nakababa si tita krissa, kinuha ng isang officer ang mga sticker sa ferry tickets namen kasi sa susunod na ferry na lang daw kami sumakay. oh-emm, at anung oras pa yon? 

was a foggy ngong ping morning
welcome to the ngong ping village!
oh, that cable car experience!
ilang sandali pa’y nakita na namen si tita krissang mabilis na bumababa ng escalator. kabog ang mga boobs naming lahat kasi baka me chance pa kaming makasakay sa ferry! tinawagan naman ng officer sa gate yung officer on-board na me hahabol pa. gosh, parang movie. tita krissa, kung kaharap mo ngayon ang malaking salamin, ano ang gustong ipaliwanag mo bakit ka naharang? tanong ni tito boi. uhm, me random inquisition kasi sila dito tito boi. sa sosyal na status kong ito ako pa ang napagkamalang magde-DH sa macau?.. gosh! imagine?, sagot naman ni tita krissa. natawa na lang sina petina at jL. 

lagpas isang oras kami nakarating, welcome to Macau! ola, mi atribido at atribida! lol. me mga libreng bus na pwede mong sakyan sa macau. para talaga sa mga turista ang mga libreng buses kasi gusto nilang ipromote ang kanilang mga pamosong hotels at casinos. libreng sakay hanggang don sa hotel ng bus na sinakyan mo. malaki ang tulong ng mga casinos sa pag-unlad ng bansang ito. noong una akala ko talaga maraming cows sa macau—Ma-cow. lol. waley bess.. una muna naming binisita ang St. Paul Ruins na wala akong kuhang magandang solo kasi hunggduhhmeeeng taong napapapicture, halos siksikan yung malaking hagdanan paakyat sa...yes, ruins.
the ruins monument as the backdrop
 Grand Lisboa Macau. from left: mariam, marlyn, ben, jL, tita krissa, petina
we also went hopping from one hotel to another. by this time medyo pagod na ang mga bakla sa pag gala pero walk pa rin kami, actually walang katapusang walk itwu. para ka na ding nakarating ng europa kasi meron silang mini replicas ng Champ-Elysees Arc de Triomphe ng paris, at Eiffel Tower (The Parisian Macau); meron ding mini grand venetian canal (The Venetian Macau), at ang bonggang-bonggang Grand Lisboa Macau na hugis lotus flower. lobby pa lang ang gara-gara na. nakakalula. we needed to stroll around to get to these hotels and casinos. so walk pa more mga hampaslupang froglets. marami pa sanang pwedeng pasyalan pero parang bibigay na mga paa namen sa kalalakad. so pahinga muna at kain na rin.

was amazed at this artificial sky. hu could tell? #TheVenetianMacau
12am na nang makabalik kami ng apartment. pagod at lagkit na ng mga itsura namen, para kaming mga chipanggang pokish na pulubi kasi feeling ko andungis-dungis na namen. gusto ko nang humiga sa bed ko. nang papasok na kami, biglang ayaw bumukas ang lock ng pinto. yass. we each switched turns to try opening including si auntie marlyn. pero ayaw talaga. nanaman? Lord binibiro mo talaga kami…pagod na pagod na kami Lord!..*dausdos sa wall* jusko naman. nananakit na yung paa at katawan mo, inaantok ka na, saka pa nasira ang lock sa pintuan! inaway pa kami ng baklitang kano na kapitbahay namin kasi tumabay daw kami sa roof deck niya nung nagpahinga muna kami. si petina narinig kong tahimik na nagdadasal. ang madaldal na si tita krissa tumigil na sa pagsasalita. sumasakit na lalo ang mga paa ni auntie marlyn. tinawagan ni jL si lulu (ung host namen) to fix it asap. buti na lang sumagot siya kasi at 12am dapat tulog na xa. 

#artificialsky #thevenetiancanal
so bandang 2am na kami nakapasok, maka-ilang ulit tinadyakan ang pinto at sinira na lang muna ni lulu ang lock, so wala muna kaming lock magdamag. just so u know ba’t ang lakas ni lulu, lalake po kasi si lulu. lulu lang po talaga neym niya so wag tayong judgmental. by 4am jL, tita krissa and petina will be leaving na, kasi flight nila early morning pabalik ng SG. kami ni auntie marlyn na lang ang maiiwan ulet kasi me isang araw pa kami. so pagkahiga ko ng bed bigla na lang nagdilim lahat sa paligid. agad na akong nakatulog. di ko maalala kung nakapag-toothbrush pa ba ako, at kung nakapag-goodbye beso ba ako sa tatlong aalis. siguro, pero ginawa ko siguro yon habang pikit na ang mata kasi tulog ang bakla.

we spent almost the whole day sa apartment, kaming dalawa ni auntie, nagpapaligsahan kung sino ang mas malakas humilik. pero talo ako kay auntie kasi mas malakas talaga yong sa kanya, me kasama pang adlibs at breaks, yung parang nagbi-beatbox. walang tigil. bandang hapon na kami nagising kasi me kumakatok, si lulu pala at ang locksmith. sana pumasok na lang sila agad kasi wala namang lock. nilagyan na lang muna namen ng silya. lol. bumaba na rin kami ni auntie pagkatapos mapalitan ng bagong lock ang silid namen. pumunta kami sa Ladies Street at night market upang makapamili na ng mga pasalubong sa mga hampaslupang nanghihingi di naman nagpabaon kahit singko. jook lung pooh. lol

paris! but not really :))
medyo natagalan ako sa pagsulat nito kasi tinatamad talaga ako. feeling ko andami kong kailangang isulat sa nakakasindak, nakaka-kabog, nakaka-inis, at nakakapudod-sapatos naming experiences. natatawa talaga ako kapag binabalikan ko ang alaalang itwu. paxenxa na po, di po itwu travel blog kaya’t hindi ako mahusay magdetalye. let the fotos speak for me. so hanggang sa susunod na namang gala. :D

“it’s not how beautiful a paradise is that makes the best experience, it’s whom and how you experience it yourself.”

#happylangmgabess


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