Huwebes, Hulyo 26, 2012

irony in illustration

ladies and gentlemen,
in my most sincere words before anything else, know that every one of you holds dear to me.

you always have enjoyed the comforts of living..

but today i read something i really have grieved about. it was on rage.

it has been our legacy to only do the best. we live and strive to attain the highest possible credits gaining that merit anybody else wanted. we risk ourselves to serve much yet we never enjoy a position where we are totally accepted through your judgments.

to further alleviate us from some minor discomforts in life we have provided good things, if not everything. good entertainment—on your dull and dreary moments for time worth spending with your loved ones. positive, right?

we have given good literature to read. perhaps a fine poetry you can relate with to enlighten your mood? uplift your spirits? we have also written sensible articles and books to incite, stimulate your mindsour desire to spend some quality time with you on your solitary times..  we were never selfish to not share what we’ve got. sad you didn’t even care who’s done what. you were too preoccupied with some other things.

i believe we’d spoken with you when we made things less perplexing amidst all this convolution. but you’ve been nurtured and educated in a manner based strongly on conservatism and tradition: you were quick to judge our deficiency, our imperfection, us being atypical. i didn’t know what infuriated you, perhaps your beliefs have clung already so firmly that your principles and you won’t square some sensitive matters you find too uncompromising..that you have developed disgust and hatred among us.

you went to the world with a thinking that everything that we do is detestable, abomination to say utmost, because of what we are as labeled. those were probably, unconfident to say, what your church have taught you of..quoting out some things from life’s Ultimate Reference a little too literally.

on your most stressful stretch you seized and took away some of your time drawing to your office den listening to a soothing music we happened to compose. to even give yourself some further break you went out to an art museum to see remarkable artworks.  we didn’t fail to amaze you.

after that visit you may have realized you could have done better with your newly-renovated bedroom so you again consulted someone who can help—an interior designer. we can only do more for you: we lit the cities, we painted the towns, put pavements on the streets, carved impressive sculptures, erected magnificent structures. we taught the children at schools. we have taken care of the frail and ailing. we clothe the men and groomed them. we turned simple girls into stunning head-turner ladies.

as you browsed on the internet today there again the articles on our depravity, they’re everywhere. so you wrote on the comment section strong words against us. everyone there thrives on negative criticisms... you were livid and pissed as ever.

tired tonight, you went off early to spoil a little on a fine dining restaurant; a cuisine prepared by one of the most fabulous chef of your city. it was an extraordinary meal it even surpassed your preconceptions about fine dining.

…and then you went home. soothing yourself over on that nice designer couch, muscles flexed just staring at the spectacular warm illumination from that piece-of-art lamp you bought from modern designer lighting, and went off to sleep later on the comfort of that bed designed by mitchell gold.

ever wondered who am i and why you have this letter it is to deliver our message. we deserve the merits, make us feel as important, loved. i could be your brother or your sister, or your long-time partner, a spouse, a better-half, your son or daughter, a nephew, your neighbor, a co-worker, an inferior or a boss, your best friend.. or just a random guy on the street  who by all those times you’ve come across with but always ignored. i’ll just wait for you when you will be ready.. perchance we can have coffee and talk something interesting later..

with you always,

bender, and the LGBTs

DISCLAIMER: this article is only a subjective impression from a gay guy’s stand point. it was not aimed to be presumptuous.  it is only a personal perception to the matter and doesn’t necessarily epitomize the position of every (straight) individual nor embodying anything actual.                                                      

Miyerkules, Hulyo 11, 2012

me in the eyes of my friend, Yeula

Here’s another entry from Yeula. :)
Ben = bakla. Ha?? I was kinda disappointed the time he outed himself to me. Shocked ang peg ko. Though this thing’s not new I was kind of in-denial and I can’t really describe the emotions I felt at that moment. I got lots of gay friends and they’re really rib-tickling me. Lumalapit pa lang ang mga bakla natatawa na ako. Talks could not be complete without the bursting of baklaan laughter at okrayan. I am glad to be surrounded with gay people. They always keep my spirits up and laughing. 

Before I will describe Bender 'ang beking me dugong stripes' please allow me to introduce myself first, para naman me exposure din ako dito mga bakla.. 

Call me Yeula and I was a former classmate/soulmate (haha) of Bender. I will admit I use to have a crush (slight lang po) on him. He’s cute. He was then very prim, quiet and mysterious (ewan ko lang ngayon). I am now living-in with someone and hoping na siya na talaga. Me and my current partner still don’t have a child, both our choice. I’m the type who loves to exceed the boundaries of moderation. I want life to be always big for me and I always dare myself to new experiences, I am not afraid of failing. 

Ben and I share similar interest in arts and poetry, sosyal. At first, I really thought he was my biggest competitor in the class. In the arts is his passion he can do a lot of things like paint, draw or sketch, conceptualize, create things, some craftworks, even poetry, name it. He already has proven himself with these superb talents. I have never known a guy who’s very creative and brilliant (char). Have I mentioned he can also dance? He’s got the moves but despite all these he was never mayabang sa class. Tahimik lang ang baklang yan. Sometimes I got jealous of him. 

He’s a type you’ll never think can do a lot of things. He is very ordinary looking (but very cute) and shy but you know he’s got something big under his pants sleeves. He is as meek as a caterpillar (baklang uod) but as flamboyant (bongga) as a peacock. 

I never knew he was gay then. He’s such a loner and he had his own way of using his time. At times mood swings strike like that of a real woman’s. What made me wonder though was that he’s very aloof to his male classmates. Most of our boys would bond together but him. Hmmmm, awkward? When he’s angry or mad he’ll just stay quiet. But you’ll know it when he ignores you all the way until you’ll become sorry for what you did. He gets annoyed at people whose business is minding other people’s. I just don’t get it when he would say nothing against them whenever he could, what runs through his mind I should have known.

We never got the chance to talk intimately about boys. Ben was then too shy to open up. I think it’s still awkward for him to loosen up and he’s too reserved to be whoring. Talking about boys, I remembered one time I caught him held gaze at this very yummy guy at school. I never told him about it and was slightly wondering what just happened. Hindi ko yon makakalimutan.  And I guess it all made sense now. All dots connected, confirmed! 

What I like about bender is that he never seem to care what others would say. He just do his thing and work on his passion with grace and class. People will shame themselves finding out he’s very good on carrying out his craft. Such a bright person with great humility. Now, even if he’s gay and all I still admire him. He’s a person who values friendship over any thing. And I’m proud to be one of his closest friends, alam ko kasing konti lang kami.. I love you bakla, ang ganda ganda mo na ha…let’s go out some time. Wala ka pa rin bang boy toy? well di mo yun problema, they’ll be sorry for not having you. Miss you already. Mwwahh!


hayan. palakpakan natin xa sa peg niya. ang walang hiya ginawa pa akong baklang uod. eh ikaw ano, Kuhol?! pakshett, kurutin ko nga yang singit mo eh. heniwey, mahal ko yan kahit okrayan ang show namin.
i love you rin bakla.

bayett labas tayo pag me panahon na tayo. lagi ka kasing bisi eh, yun ang palusot mo pag wala kang pera. kung hindi nman ako nman ang walang oras at walang pera. pero masaya na rin ako sa iyo friendship, inferness ha ang bongga ng bf mo bet na bet ko! anong oras ka ba umaalis ng bahay niyo at anong oras balik mo?

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Huwebes, Hulyo 05, 2012

epic fail

masayang nagtatawanan sina jacob at davin. akala mo'y isang tropang anim ang nagkakasiyahan pero sila lang pala. ganun sila pag nag-uusap, magkaibigang click palaging masaya ang kwentuhan.  

jacob: dumaan nga pala kanina si vina para sabihan ka raw na nakuha na niya number...tinext ka niya gamit pa cellphone ko. bagong number ko na naman yon. kaninong number yon tol? akalain mo ba naman nakuha mo pang utusan yung kapitbahay mong me crush sa 'yo!

davin: siya naman kasi nag-offer eh.. saka di ko ugali yun nakakahiya kaya, pero mahal kasi ako nun haha!.. alam niya lang kasi mga iniisip at nararamdaman ko bago ko pa sabihin. heto nga oh, binigay na niya sa akin..

jacob: patingin nga!

davin: saka na di pa pwede. parang mas excited ka pa yata sa 'kin eh..

jacob: ayun! kaya pala mayabang me chikababe na palang natitipuhan. me accomplice ka pang isang chikababe. tol pag nalaman kong maganda pa yan sa flirt na si jeniffer na bukas liligawan ko na, naku!..

davin: pati  ba naman si jen di mo pa pinatawad? makikilala mo rin... wag   masyadong atat  :D

si jacob ang isang klase ng lalakeng di takot mawalan ng girlfriend. siya kasi yung tipong nilalapitan, hindi ang lumalapit. malakas ang dating, lalakeng-lalake at hindi siya kailan man nahirapan kapag binreak-up ng girlfriend o gusto na nitong magpalit ng syota. matangkad, moreno, at nakakalaglag panty ang ngiti na tila nang-aakit. sa medaling salita, mabenta. masayahin siyang tao, sociable, at napakahilig sa chicks.

si davin naman sa kabilang banda, ay gwapo rin pero tahimik at mesteryoso. hindi ito palakibo sa mga taong di pa niya masyadong kilala pero maingay at palatawa kapag barkada ang kasama. malalim siyang tao at palaging nag-iisip. hindi niya masyadong kinukwento ang personal na buhay kaya't nananatili siyang mesteryo sa karamihan.

pero sa kabila ng kanilang pagkakaiba ng ugali masaya ang kanilang pagkakaibigan.

vina: ano, tinext mo na?

davin: di pa eh...marami pa kasi akong tinatapos kaya't parati kong nakakalimutan..

vina: weh, alam kong di mo siya nakakalimutan. ito naman ang labo, pinaghirapan ko kaya pagkuha niyan. kinapalan   na nga lang mukha ko baka ano na iisipin nun sa 'kin...

davin: sa susunod wag ka kasing basa nang basa ng kilos at iisip...yan. hehehe. salamat talaga vin..kaw kasi eh, di ko naman kasalanang mahulaan mo agad iniisip ko

vina: hmpf! kung sa akin ka lang di na kita pinahihirapan eh. ewan ko nga sa 'yo!...

davin: *nahiya at natawa ng bahagya

vina: wala kang pag-asa diyan! umalis na rin si vina.

araw-araw kung magpaskil si davin sa fb ng mga larawang me nakasulat na mga microblogs na panay panliligaw. lingid kasi sa kaalaman ng lahat, me nagugustuhan siya ngunit hindi niya ito sinasabi at inuopen-up sa barkada.


jacob: hoy korny! me nililigawan ka ano? di mo yan binabanggit ah..

davin: loko! akin na muna yun. tagal na yan di lang pinapansin..saka ko na lang sasabihin kilala mo tol pwede mong hulaan :D

jacob: wooo, ito nmn npka-emo. pa-sekret sekret pa eh. torpe. insecure. aagawin ko nga yan eh

vina: anong kaguluhan etoh? :)

davin: @jacob, ma-insecure ba sa 'yo?! insekyurin ko kaya yang mukha mo! para sa akin lang xa kaya di mo yun maaagaw, ulol  :D


jacob: tol pki-sabi k mma naayos na ung 
          truck na paglo-loadan ngayong lingo.
          pero bukas pa ko mkk-uwi ddaanan ko p c jen

davin: pmunta ako senyo knina wla p mama mo.
          punta na lng ulit ako mmya

jacob: tenk u tol

davin: ingat ka dyan maraming rebelde dyan! hahahaha

jacob: hoy, naunahan na nman kita, torpe!
          kmi na ni jeniffer, ahahaha..
          cge tol bukas na usap




vina: ba't me ouch ang show nu ngyari?...

jacob: nu yan basted? :D

davin: ---------------

jacob: hoy

davin: @@@@@@@@@@

jacob: nu ba nangyayari sayo pm mu nga

davin: di eh. . .

. . . . . . . . . . . .

davin: .....sinagot na raw xa  :)

jacob: ha?


 jacob: tol??

davin: ....oo tol. :D