i have been contemplating about making
the first move towards my neighbor crush. i think it’s time, i just had my birthday last month. i'm old. you remember him
right? i rarely see him everyday these past weeks and his absence makes me
think of him more. may tama na talaga ako
sa kanya. tsk! well, i've been single and very much available (for him).
was on my way to the office when
suddenly from afar i saw a guy with a very familiar type-b nautical uniform
coming. oh my! shett, this is it.. my heart suddenly jumps out & was
hell pounding. i knew it was him. i thought i was ready for my
"move" when in a blink of an eye we walked past each other.
f*ck! what just happened? i thought i
have been practicing this? was i walking too fast and i didn’t even pause for the
magical "hey, we've been around as neighbors & yet haven’t gotten ur
name.." “btw, i’m ben and that uniform looks good on you. can i have your name again?”. my god,
forgive me for being such a jerk!
then just like that everything was
ruined. i hadn't done anything good lately and this adds to the frustration. a disappointing
morning and day ahead. talking about being lame! i really can't forgive
myselffor being so lame. damn, i blow
another chance. and what is it for me to do the next time?. . .i don't know. i
don't even know if there would be another next time. i so want to punish myself now.